EDU 6132: Students as Learners
Personal Reflective Paper
Morgan Rost
Seattle Pacific University
March 1, 2010
Marker Event and Social Context:
As I started my 5th grade year, my last year at View Ridge Elementary School, I was excited to see what the year was going to bring. When November came around it was time for my yearly physical and everything was going well, until my doctor checked me for scoliosis. After checking my spine for what felt like 10 minutes, my doctor called my mother into the room to talk to both of us. My doctor explained to us that I had scoliosis and I needed to meet with a back doctor to find out the severity of the curvature of my spine. At first I did not understand what this all meant, but my mother assured me that everything would be ok, and not to worry until we met with the back doctor.
My mother came and picked me up early from school a week later and we went to Children’s Hospital to meet with the back doctor. Once I took a few x-rays the back doctor came into the room to explain to us that my spine was curved in a “S” shape, and that because I was still growing I would need to wear a back brace for 20 hours a day to hold my spine in place the curvature would not get worse. When my mother and I both heard this news we began to cry. So many questions were popping into my head: Would I still get to play soccer? What happens if the back brace does not work? Do I have to miss school?
Even though I missed school because of appointments, I passed 5th grade and was nervous to enter a new school next year. When I entered Eckstein Middle School for the start of my 6th grade year I felt so embarrassed because I needed to once again explain to everyone why I had a back brace, and why I needed to miss school when all I wanted to do was to fit in with the other students. I had no idea that the next doctor appointment would make things even worse. At the next appointment my back doctor looked at my x-rays, as usual, only this time he told me that he had good, and bad news. The good news was that I did not have to wear my back brace ever again; the bad news was that my spinal curvature got much worse and I needed to have back surgery to make it better. My struggle to fit in with the other students was about to get much harder.
For the next few months I missed more and more school because I had so many appointments to prepare my body for the surgery. I had appointments to get MRIs, more x-rays, and I had to give blood for my surgery. If missing school was not hard enough, when I was at school I had to take a lot of vitamins and pills during the day, and spend a lot of time talking with my teachers to prepare my school work for my surgery. Since I had so many other things going on, some of the other students made fun of me. This only made me fall more behind in school because I felt so different and I did not want to do my work, I did not see the point. After my surgery I had a quick recovery and only missed two weeks of school. During those two weeks I did not want to do my homework because I did not understand the material.
When it was time for me to go back to school at first I was excited because I thought things would be different. I was not made fun of anymore because I did not have a back brace, and did not have to miss school as often. My school work on the other hand was not so different. I was falling more and more behind and did not understand the material, and I started to give up. My teachers did not let me give up and took time out of their day to work with me so I would get back on track to succeed.
Theory of Development or Learning:
When students start school motivation is high, but as time goes on motivation declines. One explanation of this phenomenon is the ideas behind the importance of self-efficacy. Self-efficacy can be defined as “a learner’s perception of his or her capability of reaching a desired goal or a certain level of performance” (Pressley pg 292). Students that have high levels of self-efficacy do better in school and are more likely to apply these feelings to future tasks. There are four main components that can influence a students self-efficacy: 1. social models- when students see other students on the same level finishing a task, the student knows they can as well; 2. opinions of others- when students are encouraged by others they are motivated to do so; 3. feedback- seeing that the students hard work paid off; and 4. “big fish in little pond”- students that are surrounded by high achievers will lower self-efficacy.
All of these factors can be affected by peers, but teachers have a big impact on student self-efficacy. Some things explained in lecture that can help to raise success of students are to provide opportunities of students to succeed. Teachers can do this by assigning tasks that are not too hard for the students, or to change tasks for certain students that are falling behind. Teachers can help students to set reasonable goals, and to let students assess their own work. Helping students to make sure their goals are not set too high will help to make sure that those goals are achieved, and then to allow students to assess the work that they do helps them to see if those goals were met without comparison to the other students. Showing students the relationship between their effort and the outcome received is important; Brophy (1998) found a formula for motivation: expectancy x value = motivation if a student expects to succeed, and the value that the student places on the task is high, the student will be much more motivated to complete the task by doing their best work. While it is important to let students assess their own work at times, it is also important for teachers to give informative feedback. Feedback that is not all negative, and that shows the student how they can fix the problem to make it better encourages the student to not give up. Lastly, teachers should give special attention to students that are discouraged and give them special motivational support. (Gritter)
Contradictions to Theory:
When I came back to school after my surgery and my teachers saw that I was struggling, they tried to help. While some of these techniques worked for my situation, some did not. The social models and “big fish in little pond” do not fit into my situation because the other students were, for the most part, on my level. There were students that were a little higher than me, but some students were also below my intellectual level. It is easy to see, now looking back, that the other students were not smarter than I was, but at the time, I thought all of my peers were much smarter than me which made me feel discouraged.
When I did meet with my teachers, and we talked about different ways to get me to understand the material again, almost all of my teachers suggested different projects that I could come up with. I turned this idea down because I was already feeling like such an outsider, and that I was different from my peers. If I had other projects and assignments to do, I thought that this would only make the situation worse for me.
Connecting the Dots: Connecting Real Life with Theory:
While I knew I was struggling in school for a long time, I thought I was doing a good job of keeping it from my teachers. I found out that I was wrong when each of them came to me to try and work out a way to make sure that I succeed. I did not ask my teachers for help, they asked me to let them help me. After school I met with each of them individually to discuss how to make sure that I would pass their classes. Each teacher was a little different in the way that we worked out a plan, but each of them started with helping me to set reasonable goals for myself. In doing this, the work that I needed to complete became much less stressful because my teachers were encouraging me and it felt like they were on my side. My teachers also helped me by sitting down with me and explaining to me why I was getting the grades I was; by giving me informative feedback I was not as hard on myself as I was when I got bad grades.
Having my teachers help me out so much made me realize that I was not alone in this process. My surgery was hard enough on other aspects of my life, so when my teachers gave me the motivational support I needed to succeed, I started to see results. After a few months of working closely with my teachers and taking much needed time to get back on track, I started to see a rise in my grades as well as my self-efficacy.
How My Experiences Will Shape My Teaching:
In my own classroom, I would like to show my students why assignments and tasks are important so they stay motivated. Through my experience I did not see the reason for the certain homework assignments and how they were going to help me in the future. I want to make sure that this does not happen in my own classroom so to prevent that I will not only tell my students why they are important, but also what steps they need to take to succeed. I would also like to give my students more options when I can so they stay as excited about the topic. When I can I would like to give my students open guidelines within certain topics because then they stay motivated.
The biggest lesson I learned from my experience that I will take with me into the teaching world is that when I see a student begin to struggle I want to take some extra time to figure out if as a teacher I can help in any way. Through my experience it did not take very long for my teachers to meet with me, it was only about 10 minutes after school, but to me as a student it meant a lot more to me. I would like to be able to be there for my students the way my teachers were there for me. Unlike my situation, I may not already know why a certain student is struggling in my classroom. If I take some time and find out what is bothering that student, and find out why they are having a hard time succeeding, I can help the student to get back on track.
Work Cited
Gritter, Kristine PH.D. (2010). SPU. EDU 6132 Students as Learners. Lectures January-
February.
Pressley, Michael, & McCormick, Christine. (2007). Child and Adolescent Development for
Educators. New York: Guilford.